Tanaga ni NADS [bow]
it was always hard to see,
if we’re ever meant to be.
but now i know it’s nothing,
cause i’ve always been falling.
Ambahan ni NADINE [bowowowo :D]
i wished on that certain star,
that they will not be too far.
i have played with my guitar,
and i have clicked the space bar,
cause these feeling is bizzare.
now i love this shooting star,
cause i haven’t had any spar.
but now wherever you are,
i know you aren’t afar.
Being the youngest and only daughter of the family, my parents picked a special name. A name that they would love to say every now and then. And a name that would always mean me. My first name is Nadine. It was originated form France/Russia. It means hope. One word, yet it totally moves me in some kind of way. It’s one of the most unique names given to girls. While my second name is Angelique. My parents went creative when they decided to give my first name a boost with Angelique being a combination of Angel (I wouldn’t exactly say I’m an angel) and unique. Before I was even born, they’ve already decided that my name would be Francesca (freedom) Louise. They wanted that name as a memory of my Grandfather. But then, they changed their mind when they saw me. I didn’t look anything like my grandpa; instead I looked more like my dad. So they changed my name. I love my name! And I was proud of what my parents have named me. I loved it because it’s unique and most of my classmates in grade school would be jealous of me for having such a name. But one day, i figured out the name i was supposed to have and it hit me that it was way better than Nadine so I kept nagging my mom why they didn’t name me francesca. But sooner I realized that Nadine fits me and that i should be satisfied. When i was a kid, my relatives would always call me “dinky” but when I got a little bit older, they started to call me ‘dinky’ less and start calling me nadine instead. My other friends though, would give me names that reflects me. Most would call me Nads or Din. But honestly, it’s okay if they nickname me. Well, as long as it’s not insulting of course. For fun my friends and I would usually pick names for our future kids, and we likely pick names that we read in books and those names that influence us. When i was in grade sarix though, i swore to myself that i would name my daughter as Francesca Louise, though after some time, i pretty much thought that it was boring and common. I wanted something simple yet elegant so u kinda like Danielle, i also want my kids to have second name so it won’t be too boring I guess my name kinda influence me with attitude. For instance, whenever everything fails and i’m ready to give up, i find my way back up again and i start all over. It’s a total cycle I know, but whenever i hear what my name means, it get’s me back to focus and it motivates me. Yes, it’s hope.
I still need inspiration to write stuff. I need to hear problems that i can fix. I want to watch movies as much as i could. I need a room wherein only i can hear the feelings and thoughts that i have. I want to be alone. *sigh.
I want everything back to where it should be.
Starting tomorrow I’ll be posting the tumblr challenge. Better start thinking if i wanna win that prize >:)))
I wish everyone’s curious about it too though, it would be a shame if they have no interest :)
